Selfish

These few months, I found myself telling deep condolences to at least three friend of mine.

They had lost their parent, whether it's their mom or dad.

The causes vary, illness is the most common..

Just an hour ago I was taking a shower when mom told me that she got a news about a priest's wife who got hit by a bus and deceased. I said to my mom how sorry I felt for the priest.

I always thought that the ones that got left behind are the most pitiful :(

Then, after the shower, I sat on the couch and do my routine of hair-drying in front of the fan, and I got the news from my friend that the priest's name is a name that is sooo familiar.

No wonder. That name is my friend's dad's name.

So I told mom and I cried a bit..

I cried. I felt very very sorry for my friend.

He had lost his mom, and so sudden too!

He must've been worried sick the night before (right after the accident, the police couldn't IDed her) and only to find that his mom is gone the next morning..

I cried and I held my mom.

But I feel very selfish that I was thinking about my own mom.

I begged God not to take her before I'm ready to be without her--which is never!!

I'm so sorry :(

A Love Letter

Oui, c'est presque le jour de Saint Valentin :)

But no, still no boyfriend. LOL.
So, I've never been in love, like real, real love.
I had a crush every now and then, but only one who'd actually gone out on a date (-or somewhat) with me.
It happened in the past, and I'm not here to talk about it ;)
Anyway, even though I told you that I've never been in love, but I guess I am right now.

I'm in love with the concept of being in love. Get it?
This feeling actually just developed earlier this year. On the past Valentines I'd been bitter, I'd been hopeful, but I'd never fallen in love with being-in-love. This makes me want to feel it, but seeing it is already a joy. 
I love seeing how couples grow old together and still be romantic after all those years.
I love seeing young couples walking together hand-in-hand, or kissing, or doing something together, a new start, a new life together ahead of them.
I found it very romantic when someone is proposing to their love, no matter how! Just that phrase "Will you marry me?" says it all <3
I even found adorableness in gay couples that I don't normally do :D 
(P.S. No offence, I'm not homophobic, I'm just not used to see them around me. Cheers!)
But seeing Blaine and Kurt, Brittany and Santana in Glee, seeing Nolan and Patrick in Revenge, it brings something else to the table--MY table. Love, any kind of it, is sooo adorable! And when they don't seem like it, they are either beautiful or painfully beautiful--bittersweet, if i may add.

Beautiful is love between a mother and a child, how they are automatically turned on and there's no switch to turn it off. Beautiful is love between a father and a child, how they are tough but sweet.

Painful is love when someone loses their one true love forever. Bittersweet is love when two people that are in so deeply in love just aren't meant to be. 

Either way, love is beautiful.
It is adorable in so many different ways.

I haven't been in love myself, but I'm already in love with being-in-love.
I hope that I won't fall out of this one, ever :)

Stay loving people !
Cheers