Selfish

These few months, I found myself telling deep condolences to at least three friend of mine.

They had lost their parent, whether it's their mom or dad.

The causes vary, illness is the most common..

Just an hour ago I was taking a shower when mom told me that she got a news about a priest's wife who got hit by a bus and deceased. I said to my mom how sorry I felt for the priest.

I always thought that the ones that got left behind are the most pitiful :(

Then, after the shower, I sat on the couch and do my routine of hair-drying in front of the fan, and I got the news from my friend that the priest's name is a name that is sooo familiar.

No wonder. That name is my friend's dad's name.

So I told mom and I cried a bit..

I cried. I felt very very sorry for my friend.

He had lost his mom, and so sudden too!

He must've been worried sick the night before (right after the accident, the police couldn't IDed her) and only to find that his mom is gone the next morning..

I cried and I held my mom.

But I feel very selfish that I was thinking about my own mom.

I begged God not to take her before I'm ready to be without her--which is never!!

I'm so sorry :(